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Lately, ive kinda been left out around here. no likes, no reblogs. Nice while it lasted, I hope that tumblr becomes “fun” again. Until then, shalom,sayonara, or g2g.
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i already am tired of summer. its TORTURE„„, ._.”

That awesome moment when you get a high A on both the performance and the actual final in your worst class :D (Calc AB). That terrible moment afterwards when you are like “WHY WASN’T I LIKE THIS BEFORE, I COULD HAVE HAD AN A IN HERE!!!!”. Life, for better or for worse, isn’t perfect, but it’s interesting! :)

I’m just saying….

Wow. Too much change.

I started timid, I ended loud. Started innocent, ended scarred. Started indifferent, ended in love. 

I also made my close friends closer, and my other friends farther. I also became more depressed.

Regret not talking to anyone. Would have loved to be closer friends with some more people… and stop thinking that I’m incapable of friendship. 

I’m sad school is over. No more friends, life, tv shows, gchat, ponies, etc. until next year. 

And I still like my crush ._.” Seriously, I am going to attempt to forget about her… (harder than you might think, lol)

I also want a better work ethic. I’m getting there, but not quite. Stay busy, not lazy. Gonna try that. 

Also, tons of anime. Lots of anime. and Movies. I’m gonna stay occupied.

Gonna make some wallpapers and music. Just because I’m not a musician or an artist doesn’t mean that I can’t be creative with either medium. Art next year, so YAY!!

Trolling needs to stop. I have hurt too many people, and I have alienated multiple teachers. My grades have dropped, and I have become apathetic and inconsiderate… derp. 

To be fair, I have been overly depressed this year. Over problems that I have created and amplified. I just want to get to a point when I won’t feel guilty when people compliment my intelligence..(I’m not that smart, seriously). 

So, if you read this all the way, I love all of you guys for making my life that much more interesting. I really look forward to school next year. Anyone taking Physics C, APUSH, AP Lang, Int. Programming, Studio Art, Calc II(ughh, Miles), and Spanish III? I hope I can be a friend, and not a “bad person” to any of you. 

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Anonymous asked: why do you accept the badness of life? why don't you ever decide to change it?

i have tried, and i have failed. might as well accept the badness. 

I wish I could just disappear. I don’t help anyone by living. After all, I am an inconsiderate, awkward, depressed, untalented, lazy idiot whom society has no need of. I’m completely useless. And I can care less about my “friends”; they probably wouldn’t even notice my absence.

rant.

That’s it. I’m done. Screw my life, i’m a freaking idiot. And it took so long to realize this. I just had to lose to someone. But, I can’t do anything about it. They always win. That never changes. That never will change. 

I dunno, it makes you feel too insignificant sometimes. No future, no hopes, no grades, no confidence. But, then again, without those, I am quite insignificant. 

That’s exactly what I am. A lazy, insignificant, recessive, antisocial, hyperactive, untalented, incompetent, inconsiderate bum. Changing now would take too much effort. No point in studying, working, achieving, talking, or collaborating. It won’t work. I’m still a bum. Be yourself they say. Try again, they say. Be positive, they say. Its all trash. At least I used proper spelling and punctuation.

/rant

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tagel-bagel asked: who do you have a crush on? ;)

why must you ask? hehe ;)